I think that sometimes people look at a healer, light worker and intuitive and think:

“I wonder what it is like to live in a world with no problems.”

On numerous occasions, I have had clients and friends ask me,  “What is it like to maintain a perfect vibration at all times?”  

To this – I laugh.

And then I laugh some more.

Anyone who actually knows me knows that I live in a very human world, yet both of my feet seem to be firmly planted in the spirit world. It can feel disorienting at times – this dual plane existence. I don’t cook dinner or do laundry in a state of Zen. I am normally frustrated that yet again, the rotten laundry faery has stolen yet another sockling — so I am once again left with one lonely sock hoping to find it’s Sole Mate. 😉 Years as a social worker for child welfare left me with a pretty wicked sense of humor that I am constantly having to tame,  ignore, or try to shove deep into a closet. (I call her Gypsy. And while Leslie is all Light & Love, Gypsy is all Live & Laugh.)

 

My day begins just as normally as anyone else’s. I corral children. I say “time to get up” at last 15 times before the last child is finally moving. And on a not so great day, many moons ago, I placed my daughter, fully clothed, into a warm bathtub to teach her that she was going to take a bath regardless of whether or not she wanted to. Much in life is negotiable. Cleanliness is not.

 

Although I did recently lose a rock, paper scissors challenge with Piper and as the victor, she didn’t have to let me comb her hair.

 

 

I stand in front of the fridge and hope I can find enough ingredients to pull off a passable dinner without having to run to the store,

and I have even cursed as our dog, Ziggy, got loose yet again and made it all the way to the golf course. (see exhibit A) ===========>>>>>>

There are days where I know that I Win if all three of my girls simply make it to school with two socks – let alone matching socks.

I have three daughters. This means three heads of hair to fix every morning and without a 450 degree straightener,

odds are that one of them will go to school looking like the daughter of Medusa.

 

 

And there are all kinds of questionable parenting decisions to be made — such as this moment. Just check out the expression on my husband’s face as he realized he buried our oldest too close to the incoming tide. NEVER FEAR! Mom the Mystic is here! He yelled HELP and I immediately responded. I grabbed my camera and snapped this priceless photo. I figure this will go a long way to explain the therapy she will need someday. Forget “Doctor, my mom talks to spirits and thinks she is a healer.” It will be more like, “My crazy mom tried to photograph my near death experience!”

 

 

A wise friend once told me: When you have a child, start a fund. If you’re lucky, it’s a college fund.

If you aren’t lucky, it’s a therapy fund. But either way, You’re covered.

 

I pick my battles and I completely agree that funky socks and a cool hat are always a must.

I mean- she totally looks like a Lightworker’s kid, right?

 

 

 

And somewhere – in the middle of all this – I find the time to listen to Louise Hay nearly every single morning. I meditate. I say my affirmations and read my “New Code for a New Life” (a collection of new rules/laws I have created for myself and my life.) And then when my girls are dropped off at school, I then gently side into LightWorker mode. I exhale. I connect. I feel the peace of living my truth and my purpose.

I connect so easily for others. It’s as simple as 1, 2, 3. Channeling for me is just as natural as breathing. It’s what I was put on this earth to do and I do it well. I have no issues in this place of connection. It flows freely and easily for me. So what’s the problem? Well, simply, it’s being human, dang it.

It’s the human things that trip me up. It’s the forgetting to pay the water bill — or forgetting to put gas in my car. I lose my keys often because I’m always floating in that blissful spirit connection and I forget to float back down to earth to figure out the part about being human. I can and do channel for myself — but sometimes, as is the case today, I am clouded by worry.  Worry closes the channel. Worry instantly breaks your connection to the divine because it means you are owning/believing a fear that hasn’t manifested. You simply aren’t trusting.  And when I channel for myself. I can’t let worry enter the equation.

 

So I’ve decided to write about my worry and my plan of action. And maybe this experience will help someone down the road.

My worry:

Childcare.

Childcare for one child is expensive. Childcare for 3 is outrageous. For several reasons, the cost of putting my girls in the afterschool program has more than doubled. I’ve called several places and it’s going to be around $800 a month for the girls to go to after school care. If I don’t put them in an afterschool program, then I must be finished seeing clients by 2:30 to pick them up from school. Right now, I work from 10 to 4:30.(But I can work as late as 5:30, if I need to)  If I cut my hours to 10 to 2:30, I will be seeing about 2 less clients per day. That means I won’t be able to see as many clients and it will create a real challenge for me to see all the weekly healing clients that I am committed to seeing.

I could seek an office space and work later hours. But then there is the issue of getting them from school to the house. (No bus service here. Plus, the schools have staggered exit times, so I will pick up 2 girls at 2:45 and then wait for over an hour until I can pick up the oldest one. So from 2:45 to almost 4:00 every day, I will be sitting in the car. Not only is this a terrible inconvenience, I could make much better use of this time. So even just working out of an office space, instead of my home office,  is not an easy solution.)

So the truth is that I am utterly uncertain of the best course. I have no idea.  And because I am up against a deadline (school starts next week), I am stressed and worried, which of course means that my ability to channel a message about this situation is affected.

So what am I going to do? I am going to wait.

I was given the message to do nothing. Wait. Very soon, the best course of action will be made clear to me. So until that happens, I am going to trust and just allow.

And I am ending this first update with the following affirmations:

• I trust life and life provides for me completely.
• The highest good course of action is crystal clear for me regarding after school care for my girls.
• I know exactly what to do and I take action accordingly.
• I am connected to the infinite flow of abundance in this universe and all is well in my world.

And So It is.

Watch for updates. I’ll post as the best course of action becomes clear.

Signed

TheOnlySlightlyFrazzledZenMom –

leslie